Val (Zebedee) Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 This is the hardest topic I will ever start, but Diesel has gone to sleep today. I am absolutely numb. I can't believe I am having to post this. The vet wanted to get him in before next Tuesday (should have gone in yesterday but the little bugger ate in the morning so couldn't go under anaesthetic) so they made space for him today for his ultrasound & x-ray. He was dropped off at 9am. I got a call at 3pm, he was under & the scan revealed a mass in his abdomen but they weren't sure how far it had spread, so I had 3 options. Put him straight to sleep without bringing him round, bring him round so he could come home for his last few weeks / months and leave it to Mother Nature or operate to see the extent & take it from there. I opted to operate but was called back within 30 minutes to say his spleen & liver were riddled with tumours and it wouldn't be fair to bring him round, the tumours were inoperable, so I have made the heart-wrenching decision to let him go to sleep. I could have been selfish & brought him home to spend the last weeks with him, but I know in my heart I couldn't do it to him. I really don't know how I am going to get through the next few weeks without him; Mysh & Kaviq keep looking for him. I still think he's going to walk in through the door any minute, but he's not. I know a lot of you met him (and fell in love with the gentle giant) and even those in other countries fell under his spell - I'm sure you'll all miss him nearly as much as me & Grumpy! So please, remember Diesel as he waddles his way over Rainbow Bridge where the big lad had better be waiting for me when it's my turn to pop my clogs. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sarah Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Still crying now for you Val, I loved him so much and so did everyone who met him, I can't comprehend how you are feeling but am here for you x x x Rip d x x x x Sent from my GT-I9300 using Tapatalk 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Michelle Sopi Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 So sorry for your loss, I too am writing this with a tear in my eye - always in our thoughts and forever in out hearts - he truly was a legend. Stroll on bug fella over Rainbow Bridge XX Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mike101 Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 OMG! I know I never met Diesel anywhere other than in these forums... but I am so sorry..my deepest sympathies to you , and your family furbabies included.... Run free big Fella Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Omg I am so sorry Val. Rip big D. I never met you but my heart still breaks Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Removed #5 Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Val, there is no way I can say what I'm feeling right now ... I think we all hoped and prayed that you'd tell us he was home and good ... Besides not being able to say what I feel - and I too, have tears in my eyes - I know there's little that anyone can say that will make it any better. 'D' be nice to the others while you wait and enjoy the good health you now have again. Val, all my love and I'm so very sorry .... //al Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlueWolf Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Oh god, no! I'm so very sorry feel you Val. I really don't know what to say, I wasn't expected to read this Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hannibal Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Rest in peace, Big D!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Leyka&Diva Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 I never met big D but was a fan of him. I'm sat here in tears,I'm so sorry for you loss Val I can't even begin to understand how you must be feeling. Run free Big D you will be missed by all xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crazeediamonds Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Rip big D wish we had had the chance to meet you. Thinking of you Val, your family and the rest of your furballs. Sending hugs and love to you all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
valkyries Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 I still can't believe i'm never going to see D again, i know he was your baby Val, Steve but i just can't stop the tear's and i'm so sorry for my reaction on the phone, it's the last thing i expected. For those who never met D he was a very special boy with a huge heart and lot's of love to give, an no one could help falling in love with him. He had a cuddle for every one children adored him and he loved them, D's passing has left a huge hole in a lot of peoples hearts and he will be sorely missed I'm just so thankful i was one of the lucky people to met and loved this gentle boy, he'll never be forgotten ever and i know this is a heart wrenching time for his oh so proud parents but Val, Steve as always you put your feelings aside and did what was best for your lad. Adored by all who met him RIP D we'll meet again one day, look over your mum and dad till your all together again but for now run free and give all that special love to the unfortunate dogs over rainbow bridge. An Lord your a lucky man enjoy this boy whilst you have him but remember your just his foster dad he's only visiting till his parents come to claim him back Love you D now go play xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andy Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Oh, Val & Steve. I am so sorry to hear this. Big D was a legend in his own lifetime. D was the gentlest Husky I ever met. i am going to miss him so much. RIP big boy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
davidjk Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Rest in peace Big D you had more friends than you knew and you will be missed. our hearts go out to you val and family at this difficult time. run free Big D Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mazz Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Oh Val, I am so sorry. My tears are running free, just like Big D is now. It's never easy. They are so much a part of our lives and we somehow become so attached to them, and then they cross over. Zoya and Eisa send you all the Husky Hugs you may need. Sometimes, no matter how much we pray for something, no matter how much we wish for something, things don't always go the way we want. We will continue to keep you and Steve in our thoughts and prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mobezilla Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 I am so sorry for your loss. I teared up before I even read the entire post, it's obvious he was very lucky to have you as his fur-mom and you did your very best for him. He runs free now, I know its not easy and we are thinking of you xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
robke Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Val am so sorry that we all have to read this and that you had to write this..... R I P Big D... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dunc Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Feel for you both Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emma Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Oh god Val. I'm stunned, really don't know what to say. Sending you all of my love. : Run free and run far big D. Xxxxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Marc Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Absolutely gobsmacked. Very few huskies as well known by everyone as Diesel, or that have been known on here as long as the forum has been in existance. D is just one of those dogs, everyone who met him remembers. Sad day. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlueWolf Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 When I read these posts of dogs I met I always feel the urge to go through my photoalbums and see them on the pictures I have. I hope you don't mind Val... Big D: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Husky-gunner Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 Val I am so so sorry for your loss having been thru this recently myself I know what your going thru, always here for ya if ya need a shoulder or an ear you have my number use it anytime, one thing you must remember is he had a very happy life with you, you should be one very proud fur mummy Run free now big D gone but never forgotten xxx We will have a drink to you at husky camp big D xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dunc Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 That looks well good Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Marc Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 As I said ... very very few who have been here since the start of the forum and are so very well known. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa (Fragglebabe) Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 (edited) Our hearts are with you Val, Steve & Adam, RIP Beautiful Diesel, thank you for all the kisses I can't find the words, I am so sorry. Diesel was the most amazing furboy xxxx The Last Battle If it should be that I grow frail and weak And pain should keep me from my sleep, Then will you do what must be done, For this -- the last battle -- can't be won. You will be sad I understand, But don't let grief then stay your hand, For on this day, more than the rest, Your love and friendship must stand the test. We have had so many happy years, You wouldn't want me to suffer so. When the time comes, please, let me go. Take me to where to my needs they'll tend, Only, stay with me till the end And hold me firm and speak to me Until my eyes no longer see. I know in time you will agree It is a kindness you do to me. Although my tail its last has waved, From pain and suffering I have been saved. Don't grieve that it must be you Who has to decide this thing to do; We've been so close -- we two -- these years, Don't let your heart hold any tears. Author Unknown Edited November 15, 2013 by Lisa (Fragglebabe) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
winterchillz Posted November 15, 2013 Report Share Posted November 15, 2013 I haven't seen much of Big D neither I ever had the pleasure to meet him. However, just as every other dog on this forum, I felt related to him and I myself feel sad to see this topic. I don't think words can do anything at the moment. Run free, Big D, hope I will get to see you at some other world. Hugs, Val. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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